Death Filter
  1. California

    Amanda Fletcher on her mother’s suicide: “I will never be free of her dying. Even here in Los Angeles — two, ten, fifteen years later and three-thousand miles apart — I am still on my knees in the closet with the door pulled closed, clutching a piece of yellow lined paper.”

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  2. We Laughed, We Cried, We Felt: The Posts We Loved in 2016

    Curl up with some tea and a comfy blanket, and revisit our favorite reads.

  3. You’ll Never Be Lovelier Than You Are Right Now

    Cody Delistraty sheds his defenses: “But the fact that defense is principally a psychological strategy means that if you are being outsmarted, you cannot succeed.”

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  4. On Rubbernecking

    When you’re compelled to look and you can’t unsee: Karalynn Moran on car wrecks and rubbernecking.

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  5. Leonard Cohen Has Left Us

    Tom Hawking on the death of Leonard Cohen: “It is one of life’s great ironies that wisdom comes only with experience, and it reaches its apogee just as we are deprived of the chance to use it. But Leonard Cohen, at least, has set his learnings down in words, and song.”

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  6. Book Mark: Notes on Friends’ Grief

    After the children of three different friends commit suicide, Jan Wilberg reflects on the role of friendship in facing grief: “Not to presume, not to intrude, but not to forget either, not to go on as if nothing happened.”

  7. And full stop.

    Aleya Kassam remembers her granny: “I watched you struggle. I watched the battle as your soul navigated its way out of your body. How for days you sank into the space between two worlds.”

  8. “So, while the lobby of the cancer center is probably one of the most depressing places on the planet, it’s also one that gives me an odd sense of comfort.”

  9. A Woof is My Word For Love

    A family’s eternal love for their first pet: “Every tiny, beautiful memory of ours is a fort that protects him. Every time we talk about him, we give that fort a fresh coat of paint. Every time we utter his name, the fort’s doors open and the black boy comes running out, with his long tongue out.”

  10. Still Life

    Georgina Blanchard recalls the stillbirth of her son, Charlie Showman: “It had never occurred to me that my baby would be anything but healthy.”

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  11. oh nothing

    “I almost shut down my blog yesterday, on a whim.” community favorite Rarasaur on grief, loss, and what we do to see if we can still feel.

  12. “But after the birth of our daughter . . . struggling for balance in our careers and adult lives and family responsibilities, I have come to understand both intimacy and marriage in new ways. Sometimes, intimacy isn’t closeness but distance.”

  13. Mother and Daughter: An (In)Complete History of (Almost) Suicide

    “Suicide was not a ‘truth’ I held dear. . . . With help and effort, I have learned to distinguish between my own, actual beliefs and that other voice that is just a misfire occurring in my brain.” Amy Bee discovers that she doesn’t want to die.

  14. Things Could Have Been Different

    “You are gone, and, although others share nearly your exact same story, by some twist of fate they are alive, and you are not.” A year later, a mother writes about her newborn son’s death.

  15. He died while I was off Facebook, and news had not reached me by any other channel. But there it was. Out of nowhere and without warning my browser was haunted by the very real presence of death. Momento mori.